Do I always have to be the bigger person??

     So...I have had so much on my mind this weekend. I really used this weekend to reflect and just have some quiet time. I had a hard time at work last week. I am currently the receptionist at work. I never applied for any other jobs because I was working with HR. Well HR didn't have the money for me and with all the changes in the company, I got stuck back at receptionist full time. I really don't mind being receptionist because I get to know everyone and kind of help everyone out. I would rather move to a different position though and learn more about the company and stay busy. I applied last week for a position. I didn't get it. That part didn't bother me...it was how it all went down that really bothered me.
     I found out a good friend lied to me...numerous times. I thought a lady I worked with was my friend but obviously she had other people she wanted for the position. I try and stay out of the gossip and drama at work. I love the people I work with but they are work friends. I have a couple friends who are more than just work friends and we hang out outside of work. I guess that's what makes it so hard. If I don't become besties and hang out with everyone outside of work then it hurts me in trying to get a different job. It's so hard. The person who got it is a hard worker and I think will do great at the position but if I didn't know that, I would think it's because of social status. It should only be about how qualified that person is for the job.
     Something Matthew and I say to each other all the time and I heard it all growing up from my parents was "Be the bigger person." Sometimes it's very hard. I just wanted to cry last week from being hurt and confront certain people about it. What is that going to solve? Nothing. I know things that went on "behind the scenes" that I can't say. I have to just keep my mouth shut, put on a smile, and learn from this. I learned who I can truly trust and how the work place is really handled.
     I was kind of in a rut all weekend. I went to church yesterday and Pastor Marta's sermon just really spoke to me. Everything I do in life shouldn't be about me and how it benefits me but I should do it for God and live a life like he wants me to. It's not always easy and I'm far from perfect but I should try as hard as I can. It also made me think last night of everything I am so thankful for and how blessed I am. No matter how life treats you, I have certain things that can always make me happy!

• I have a loving God that loves me no matter what
• I have the most amazing husband.
• I have the best family a girl could ever have. I seriously ask God all the time how I was so lucky to get the most perfect and loving parents and two awesome sisters.
• I have a roof over my head.
• Matthew and I are healthy and our families.
• I have really good friends
• I have a one of a kind church family!
• I have....Christmas music. It always makes me happy!

I encourage you all to always try and see the positive things in life...even when you are having a rough day or week.