4 Weeks With a Cast and 4 Weeks With a Boot

I finally went to the doctor. I have to wear a cast for 4 weeks and then a boot for another 4 weeks. I can do this for 8 weeks. I keep telling myself that it could be worse. I just miss work and doing things for myself. I also miss Annie. She is probably so confused and doesn't understand. :( I had a little breakdown on Tuesday night. I just don't like asking people for help and I can't do anything it seems like. Matthew is so good to me and I don't know how I can ever repay him. With everything on his plate, he has to take care of me too. The pain was starting to get better and then I had the cast put on and I'm soooooo sore. Here are some pictures

 My very nasty cankle. It looks very gross...so I thought I would share it with you and you can be grossed out too. :)

Top view. Not as gross looking but still very big and swollen. 

 My BRIGHT pink cast! haha I will stand out for sure! :)

 My daily position as of right now. In bed keeping it elevated. Not fun but only a few more days! 

You can see my little toes sticking out. I'm glad they can breathe. 

 The Evil crutches. 

I got a wheel chair to bring to work. It should help me get around and I can help out people better then if I had crutches. I also got a little knee scooter. It's pretty awesome but it's still in the car. I can't use it just yet because I'm very sore from the cast. 

Well I'm trying to be optimistic and this is only a break for 8 weeks. If I follow the doctors orders, I should be good to go!! yay!! Thank you for all of your prayers and sweet calls and comments. You all are making this a lot easier. :)

I Was Enchanted to Meet You

It was a very eventful weekend. Friday was a great day at work. I got to leave an hour early! I know it's only an hour but it's very exciting and we beat a lot of traffic. Matthew and I went back to my parents house and filled up both of our cars with my stuff. I'm not sure how one person can fit so much things/furniture in one room. All I know is I am good at it. After unloading the cars to the third floor, we went back to my parents house and ate chipotle together. Matthew and I were both stressed because of all the things I own. It's quite ridiculous yet I don't want to get rid of much.

On Saturday we got up early to run some errands. We bought some things we need for the place and some nice curtain rods and curtains for the bedrooms. We then had to get ready for a funeral. Matthew's Aunt Lee, her step dad Rich, passed away. Even though it wasn't Matthew's grandfather, Matthew was very close to him and he was still family. It's always nice when all sides of the family can get together have a great time. I met him at all the holiday gatherings and he was such a nice guy. I had no idea that his health wasn't great. It was really neat to see all the people who came to town for the funeral. He was a very loved man. The funeral was beautiful. Aunt Lee got up and spoke about Rich. I was laughing one second and crying the next. I wish I could have known him better. At the end of the funeral they played TAPS. It gets to me everytime. I just wanted to squeeze Matthew and not let go. I love my hero and I felt very blessed to have met Rich, who was a hero to me and so many others as well.
We all went to Uncle Bill and Aunt Lee's house after the funeral. It was so nice meeting all of their relatives and close friends. I enjoyed hearing stories and getting to know so many people. Everybody was so incredibly nice to me and we all had fun giving Matthew a hard time about not proposing yet. ;)  We made a stop on the way home and got some cute Kitchen curtains. After a long day of celebrating the life of Rich, we decided to just go home and relax and go to bed. I did get a call from one of my best friends Denise which my day as well. I loved catching up. I sure miss seeing her all the time and seeing her beautiful girls grow.

Sunday morning rolled around and we got up early to finish moving. Matthew and my daddy finished moving some heavy furniture and I tried to get everything out of my room. I didn't have much left but I had to hurry and get to church. I work in the nursery at church and I'm so in love with that job. Those kids are the most precious kids ever. They are a great way to start off your week. I left church a tad early to go home and finish moving. I promised Kelsi that I would have it all out before she got out of church. I was at my house by myself moving things when the puppies ran in front of me and I started to fall. I didn't want to fall one way because there was a bed frame in the floor so I tried to make myself go the other way.....bad move...I think. My body went down but my ankle didn't come with it and I heard a loud crack and I just kind of fell to the ground. I instantly started crying. If you know me well, then you know me and pain do not mix what so ever. I worry and freak out very easy if it's concerning me. I knew I broke it when I heard the noise. I was scared to look at it because I didn't want to see my bone sticking out. I finally looked and it was just very swollen. God was really watching over me because if my bone would have been out, I would have passed out and maybe passed away from a heart attack of the sight.
Since I was the only one home, I had to booty scoot to the kitchen to get the phone because I left my cell phone at the apartment that morning. I finally got to the phone and called Matthew. He came over in a hurry and then I called my daddy right after. We got to the ER and found out I sure enough broke it. The doctor said a break is better then a sprang so it was a good thing that it was broken. I understood what he meant but breaking something never should be a good thing. haha. I was freaking I might have to have surgery because I did when I broke my hand. I asked one of the guy nurses if he had seen my crack. lol. That was embarrassing. I meant the crack in my ankle. At least it calmed the moment down for a bit. They said it was a clean break so I should only need a cast. Who wants to sign it?? haha.

Well the rest of the day was good. I knew how amazing Matthew was before but talk about somebody taking care of me and spoiling me. It makes me want to tear up to think about how lucky I am to have him. He has been by my side since it happened and has been taking care of me. He slept on the couch next to me last night just incase I needed anything during the night. To this day, I am still so enchanted that I met him. I love this song by Taylor Swift called Enchanted. It makes me think of Matthew everytime. I also am so blessed for Matthew's family. Matthew's mom, dad, uncle, grandma, and friends all called to check on me. I can't wait until they are my family as well. I'm so very lucky.
I am also very lucky to have Melissa as my friend. She and Gianna came over to see me. They brought me flowers and checked up on me. It made my day.
I also am blessed for my friends and family who called to check on me. Rachel and Amy, y'all are great friends. My Uncle Garry also called me. I seriously have the best uncle ever. He's one of those uncle's everyone needs! ;) Also all the amazing friends on facebook book who checked on me. It's all the same and it meant the world.
And a HUGE thanks to my family. They are always there helping me out and loving me. I couldn't have made it through today with out my mommy. She knows how to calm me down and to make me feel like everything will be okay. They are also taking care of little Annie for me. Since I am on the THIRD floor, I can't bring her out right now. I can't wait for her to come back. I love you all!!!

Sweet Gianna!!! She is almost 1!! CRAZY! 

I know I can get through the next 6 or more weeks with a dumb broken ankle because of the amazing friends and family I have. I went to work today for a half day. It was probably a bad move on my part because my ankle started throbbing but all my friends at work were more then kind to me. I'm very blessed. I don't want to miss very much work because not only do I love work but I also don't want to let my coworkers down. They are such great people. If only going up to the third floor would start getting easier....then all this wouldn't be tooo terribly bad. I have my next appointment on Wednesday at 2:10. I will keep y'all updated  ;)

My broken ankle and my sweet toes in a princess sock! I'm in good hands! 

I can't do much but lay on a bed with my leg up. We had ice cream and then took pictures of ourselves looking through the spoon. Don't make fun...we are making the best out of this situation! haha

Thank you all for your prayers! :)

In the Mood to Rant!

I'm in a weird mood today. I have this pit in my stomach like I'm nervous about something. I have no idea why. I'm not nervous about anything. I think I have just been stressed with moving and getting sleep and making sure everything goes as planned. I woke up at 3 this morning and was wide awake for an hour. I finally fell back to sleep and woke back up at 4:30. Instead of just laying there, I just got up and started packing. I am going to be dead by the end of the day and I'm going to have to move all evening. Oh dear.
So things on my mind that drive me crazy....

• People who drive in the HOV lane when there is only one person in the car.
• When people cut me off in the HOV lane because they cross the double white line.
• People who drive SLOW or the speed limit in the HOV lane...not allowed.
• (As you can tell, I have HOV issues...yet I still use it)
• People who call me at work and tell me their life long story before asking me a question that I can't answer. I then have to transfer them to someone and they get to repeat everything they just said.
• People who don't make an effort to see their child/children if they don't live with them. I could go on and on about this one. That's your child...how on earth can you go so long without making an effort to be in their life but once every few months...if that?
• People who get in your business just to cause drama...REALLY?
• Moving...it takes so long no matter how much stuff you have. Where is the end to it?
• Facebook- why do people feel the need to trash somebody for what they say on facebook. I had a friend yesterday who was celebrating Elvis. A friend of hers commented and said how on earth could she celebrate a drug addict. Why do they have to state their opinion? Just move on.
• Another thing concerning facebook- everybody has their own facebook, so what they say is what they say. If you have a problem with it, why don't you just delete the person. I can't stand getting lectured on facebook. 
• People who have kids and drop them off with their parents or a nanny all the time so they can party. Why on earth did you have kids if you don't want to spend time with them? It's not fair to the kids. You are their parent not somebody else.
• Why is it if you are nice to a guy, then they think you are in love with them. Umm no, it's called being polite because I'm not a mean person. If they have a girlfriend or a wife, they feel the need to let you know in the first 15 seconds of talking to them. I don't care.

WOW. Somebody is in a cranky mood. I feel better now after my rant of annoying things. haha! A majority of these things aren't a big deal but I just felt like venting. That's what my blog is for....
Please don't take offense to anything I say. It is only my opinion and I am not targeting anyone. I offended someone in my divorce post and it is only things I think about or go through my mind. I would never target or slam someone in my post.

I'm in a good mood now! It's almost lunch! I hope you all have a good day and not a ranting day.

~Home Sweet Home~

I have an apartment ladies and gentlemen. I'm absolutely, without a doubt in love with it. We are still not all the way moved in yet. I am going to try and finish it up tonight and tomorrow night. We had a couple set backs but hopefully they will be fixed today. Our dishwasher was clogged so when we tried to wash our new dishes, it flooded our kitchen. The light in the dining room randomly fell and broke. Matthew's garage door clicker stopped working. Other than that, everything is great! :) Matthew will come with the rest of his things on Thursday when he is finished with summer session II. It will seem more real on Thursday. We have the kitchen completely unpacked. I just can't wait to start hanging things up all over the walls and making it more like home. Once we get it finished, everybody will have to come over and see it. I'm weird and don't want to post any pictures of my place online. If later on I end up making this private, then I will but for now I just want to be safe. If you do want pictures, message me and I will send you some. :)

Annie is slowly adjusting to the apartment. She's lived in an apartment for over a year but she has gotten use to having a backyard and friends to play with over the last year. I feel really bad but Matthew and I are going to make sure she gets plenty of time outside. She's been real nervous too because it scares her when I leave her at my parents house while I'm still moving. I think she's scared I won't come back for her. It's very strange to call my house my parents house now. Weird....  

Melissa and Gianna came to see my new place on Sunday. Gianna was crawling all over the place. She will be walking anytime now. She is so stinkin cute!! I'm glad she liked my place since she has to come see Aunt Robin all the time...my orders! :)

BIG THANKS to my daddy and to Crunkdaddy for helping us move!

God is good all the time. All the time God is good! It was a wonderful weekend. I am very blessed to have so many people supporting me, for such great friends, an amazing family and of course for Matthew Blaine Lucas the first! hee hee!

3 Days Until I Start a New Chapter

Well in 3 days I will be moving into my own apartment. I'm soo excited. Some of you may know and some of you may have come to the conclusion from my last post that Matthew and I are moving in together. I haven't really broad casted it everywhere. It's not that I'm hiding it, but it's a super big decision that I made and I have always been old fashioned so this is not something I would usually do. I am confident in my decision and I'm very excited to start this new chapter in my life with Matthew.

The strange part is that I am very excited about this and I don't have a doubt in my mind that it is not going to work. What's been eating at me is that my whole life I have always said I will never live with a man until I'm married. I always believed that I never would. I am now 25 years old and I don't think it's necessarily bad anymore. We have lived 30 to 40 minutes away from each other the whole time we have been together. We rarely ever have time alone. Sometimes I only see him once a week. I am ready to see him whenever I want and hug/kiss him whenever I want. When I have a bad day, I get to see him. Just seeing him puts me in a good mood. I'm not making excuses on why I think it's okay now, just that this is what I have decided to do. I didn't decide this overnight. Matthew and I talked a lot about this and I talked to my parents about this. It might sound weird but I respect my parents and I don't want to leave on bad terms. I know they aren't excited like I am but they support me....which I am very lucky for.

Another thing that has been really hard is worrying what others will think. I am not one to worry much about what others think. I know people say who cares what others think, but to me, I do care in certain ways. I think you should care to an extent on what people think about you. I don't want parents to think of me as a bad influence. Even though I am making this decision, I would never tell youth that I think it's the right thing to do. Yes I am doing it but that doesn't mean they should. I disagree with the saying you should live with somebody before getting married to see if it works. False. If you love someone then those little things that bug each other, you can get over or work through. I know Matthew and I will have our trials but I love him and I don't think this will make or break us. I have had a few people come up to me and say "this will be the factor on if y'all will make it or not." It hurts my feelings that people honestly think that. I also don't want people to think that I have lost my morals because I do still have morals. It's funny because I have a lot of friends that are like who cares, it's a different decade. I however do care, it was a very big deal to me and I just don't want to let anybody down or have them change the way they view me.

I might sound silly right now and I am blowing this way out of proportion but it's been heavy on my heart. I do love Matthew and I can't wait to marry him. There are a lot of things that will be different. I have never lived with a boy before and since I don't have any brothers, this will be new to me. I know living with brothers and your boyfriend are two totally different things but there are things I have never had to deal with. This will be interesting....like the toilet seat left up, stinky toots, more laundry, not being so anal about everything, learning to share, making sure we compromise about things...and more. I'm not worried though. I'm sure I will have some stories to share as this journey begins. Thank you for your support. :)

Is the Glass Half Empty or Half Full?

This weekend was wonderful. It was just what I needed. Friday was one of those days that if you aren't a optimistic person, your day may not have been that great.
I started the day off waking up late. I'm not sure how I slept through my alarm but I did. It wasn't a big deal because I was still on time but I didn't get to do my hair. I had to throw it up with it wet. I had a headache that morning. I kept telling myself it's Friday and I get to see Matthew so be happy. The morning went great for the most part. I get irritated sometimes because I'm on the phone and it's important and people come up to me and just start talking and asking me questions. Yes I am the receptionist and yes I am out in the front but come on people, where are your manners?? I was talking to an automated machine and every time somebody talked to me, it would start all over. I was counting down the minutes until lunch.

The downfall to being the receptionist is that you can't just go to lunch unless you have someone to cover for you. Well a lot of coworkers were going out to lunch because it was Guy and Eric's last day at work. Well if a lot of people want to go out, then it's going to be real hard to find somebody to watch your lunch because they want to go out as well. I didn't know Eric that well but he was always real nice. Guy on the other hand is one of those people that is incredibly nice and just always happy. If he asks how you are doing, he generally cares. It was nice to work with somebody like him. I was sad to see him go.
On the bright side, I went to Twisted Root with Melissa. Best hamburger place EVER. I love their hamburgers and their fried green beans. It's not the healthiest place but it's the yummiest place. Going there for lunch with Melissa definitely cheered me up.
After lunch as we were walking back to the car, we noticed Melissa had a boot on her car. We were very confused. The parking lot said Twisted Root parking and then said for paying customers only. In Lubbock that means as long as you are eating at that restaurant, you can eat there. In Dallas that means you need to also pay an additional $2 to park here. It also means you should know that you need to pay at the pay machine hidden on the other side of the parking lot. When we called to have them remove the boot they said about 15-20 minutes. Being the two smart people that we are, stood outside complaining about how hot we were and that we were sweaty and gross. About 10-15 minutes later a guy walks past us and says he got a boot on his truck as well. He then asks why we aren't sitting in the car with the air on waiting? We looked at each other and thought the same thing. I guess since there was a boot on the car we acted like we couldn't touch it lol. We got in the car and turned on the air. It felt much better and gave us a laugh. It was $100 fee for the boot plus the $2 parking. We had an expensive lunch.
We got back to the office and my boss Tammy said we could leave at 3 and enjoy the weekend. Yay!! I was excited to see my hunny and Melissa was excited to pick-up Gianna early.
Matthew was already at my house waiting on me when I got home. I was way super excited to see him. It made the whole day that much better. We drove to Ikea and bought our furniture. It makes it that much more real that I'm moving out this coming Friday. As we were waiting in line to have our furniture delivered, my toe got rolled over. It hurt sooo bad and started bleeding. It cracked my toe nail all the way down. Seriously, is this really happening? It was really sore to walk on and we were about to head to the Frisco RoughRiders game. I'm a big baby when it comes to pain but I got over it.
The RoughRiders game was a BLAST. We met Chris and Amy there. If you don't know these two amazing people, you should. We had box tickets, which meant we got free food and free beer the whole night. HEAVEN! The game was really good even though we lost. We watched the fireworks from the car because Matthew had to be up at 5 in the morning.
My luck that day was not so great. 121 was closed and so we drove around forever to figure out how to get home because all the detour signs they had up only led us back to a closed road. An hour later we were home.
All in all it was an amazing day with a few twists here and there. Can't let a little bad luck ruin a great day.

The rest of the weekend went great and I didn't have anymore bad luck...that I can think of. I had brunch with Chris & Amy and Katie & David. We had a lot of fun catching up and it was my first time to meet Katie's husband David. I hung out with my sisters Saturday night. It's going to be weird not living with them. We got dinner and watched a movie.
Sunday was my moms birthday. We went to church and then went out to eat at Anamia's to celebrate. Matthew surprised me at church and spent the day with us. I went from 2 weeks of not seeing him to 2 times in one weekend. I was one happy girl! :)  HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!

Very blessed for a great family, a great boyfriend, great friends, and a great church family. :)

It's Hump Day!

I'm so excited it's already Wednesday. It seems like this week is flying by! It's been two weeks since I've seen Matthew and I get to see him FRIDAY. Friday, Friday, got get down on Friday! Okay sorry, enough of Rebecca Black.

In-N-Out Burger! We are going there again on Friday, Friday!

I got my own name sign at work. It looks really small in this picture...that's because it is. I still love it! :)

I never get mail at work and so Cristina sent me a card. I love my friends at work!

My friend Sarah had this on her blog so I made one at work. I'm in love with it. It needs some work but I put it together in like 5 minutes. I can't wait to make a super pretty one that sparkles!

I had a very eventful Wednesday. haha! Hope you all are having a wonderful week! :)

If Only the World was Full of Rainbows, Hearts, and Butterflies!

I know deep in my heart that Matthew is the one for me. I can't wait to marry him and share the rest of my life with him. As much as I am so excited about marriage, it's a little scary too. Divorce seems to happen all the time these days. I feel like it's the easy way out in a lot of circumstances. I don't disagree with divorce because sometimes it really is what's best. If two people have been working on their relationship for years and they aren't happy then why stay married. If you feel like you have done everything in your power to try and make it work and it still isn't then it may be the best thing.
Marriage isn't always going to be easy and you have to constantly work at it. I think communication is the main thing. If you can't talk to each other then how are you going to work something out or know how the other one is feeling? I'm not married so I don't have experience and it's a lot easier said then done but you take an oath to honor, love, cherish, and obey until death do us part. One would think you would try harder to save a marriage.
I am very blessed that my parents are still together. I have never had to experience divorce. I hope I never have to. When I hear that people are getting a divorce, the first thing that pops into my head is just how very sad. I am mainly sad because this beautiful at one time marriage is now no more. All I really think is that they aren't going to be living together anymore but recently I've come to realize it's so much more than that.
Children
When a couple gets divorced and they have children, it's not only them going through a divorce, it's the entire family. I see too many times where the adults are so wrapped up into who gets what, who gets the kids when, fight fight fight, and they never pay attention to how it's affecting their kids. What REALLY makes me sad is when parents talk bad about the other parent to their children. No child wants to hear their mommy bash their daddy or vice versa. That really breaks my heart when a child feels like they have to take sides so one parent is not upset with them. I could go on all day about this subject. I'm very passionate about it. I think that's why I have always wanted to be a family therapist.
Random Questions
What do you do with your wedding album? Do you get rid of it? I mean those were amazing memories but if you fall out of love, do you still keep it? What happens if you remarry...does it mean you throw it away? I've always wondered these things. What about family pictures, do you throw those away? I've seen people cut out the mom or cut out the dad in the picture. I'm sure that makes the children happy to see a broken family picture hanging up. What about all the family members and friends who have pictures of y'all as a family? Are they supposed to take them down? What if they still get along with both people? It's crazy when you think about it all. What about wedding rings? I know you don't wear them but do you keep them or sell them? I hope I never have to answer these because I'm going through one.
Dating
Sometimes I wonder how people can go from being married for years and raising a family together to dating somebody the next week. When I have dated guys in the past no matter how long we dated, it was still hard no matter if it was me or him who broke it off. I know people cope differently and maybe it's easier to go out and date right away but I just could never do it. It would really hurt my feelings if I built a life with someone and we were going through a divorce and he was already dating other people. It would make me feel like I wasn't special or that our marriage didn't mean more to him. I definitely think that people should be happy and move on and remarry....just maybe not while the divorce is still going on...that's my opinion anyway.

I think I have ranted enough. Realizing all of this has just made me know how important it is to be sure you are ready to marry and commit to spending the rest of your life with someone. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with Matthew. I will do everything in my power to make our marriage work and to make him happy. I think having God as the center of our lives will really help make that happen. I love you Matthew Blaine Lucas.