Friday, June 22, 2012

My best friend

I just need to get this off my chest. I don't know why this bothers me so much because nobody is treating me bad but it's my best friend and her daughter.
How can a man not want to be more involved in his daughter’s life? I don't understand it. She's my goddaughter and I can't get enough of her. When I don't see her for a few days (which barely happens) I feel like she has grown so much in those few days.
I see the way that Melissa is as a mom. She is one of a kind. She puts her daughter before anything and everything in life. The love between her and her daughter is something that I cannot wait for some day. It boggles my mind that seeing your child every other month is good enough. That calling once a week to check in on the same day and time every week is good enough. It's like that is his scheduled time. He has missed so many of her "firsts".
Lately he has been all about how much more money he and his wife are making. He bought a new car, he bought a new computer, he bought fresh lobsters in Dallas for his mother, (but didn't stop by to say hi to his daughter) he pays for everything for him and his wife when they come into town. He doesn't pay child support, he doesn't offer any money to help, he wants them to go to nice restaurants when they're in town but doesn't pay for Melissa or Gianna, and he doesn't pay for any of the activities that he wants to do with her when he's in town. That is all on Melissa...meanwhile she's paying for everything else as well. She pays bills, rent, daycare, food, extras, diapers, etc... Buying a toy here in there is nice but I'm sure Gianna would love being with him more than getting a new toy once a month or every other month. I'm not saying he doesn't love her but he has a very odd way of showing it.

I just want to say that I know there are a lot of single moms and dads out there doing it all on their own. No matter what the circumstance is, you guys are amazing.

Melissa Christine Davidson, you are a wonderful mommy. You amaze me. I will always be there for you...day or night.  Love you sister! :)

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Floating on Cloud 9

I can't say enough how blessed I am. Life is full of ups and downs but lately it's almost all been ups! We are at 86 days until the wedding. I can't believe how fast time is flying. I felt like it was dragging at first and now I feel like it won't slow down. There's so much still to do that I want it to slow down but then I can't wait to marry Matthew!  haha.

I have my first wedding shower next weekend. My mom's friend Merry Shuck, also a friend of mine who I have always looked up to is throwing me a church shower. I'm so excited. I can't wait to celebrate with my church family.
We got our engagement pictures done a couple weeks ago. I have a few sneak peeks. Kim Craig who is our photographer, did an amazing job. I wish I could look at myself and love how I look but of course all I did was complain about myself. She will be doing our wedding pictures as well. I can't wait. :)




2 weekends ago, I went shooting clays for the first time. I had such a fun time. I didn't do too bad. I can't wait to go shooting again. I think we might this weekend for father's day. I had a little bruise but it wasn't bad. Nothing bad enough to keep me from going again.
Wedding planning is going wonderful. Everything is coming along. I got my flower girl outfits in the mail last week. I can't wait to see it on them. They are going to steal the show with their cuteness! I can't wait to see our little ring bearer in a little tux. I think I am way more excited to see the kids all dressed up then myself. ha. We went and heard Marisa play the harp this last Saturday. She played what songs she will play at our wedding. It made me get so excited. She is perfect at playing the harp. I can't wait.
We have had two sessions now of premarital counseling. It's going great. I will do anything to make sure that our marriage lasts forever. It's on the other side of Fort Worth so it's fun to just talk and enjoy each other on the drive there and back.
I'm very excited about this weekend. It's a weekend all about Daddy's!! Can't wait to spend it with my amazing daddy and my future daddy in-law! :)



                                 


Random Happy things
I get to start attending church every Sunday! :)
I threw Kristen a small wedding shower at work!



The gas station by my house plays KLTY inside!
I learned how to make my own homemade tomato sauce.
I got to spend last Sunday afternoon with Grandma Kitty.
My Mom, Grandmommie, and Kelsi came and had lunch with me last week!
I love my goddaughter more everyday!




Best Detangler ever...

I got my wedding hanger in!

Best Hummus EVER!

Brayden got baptized!

I went to Bark in the Park with Krunkdaddy!

I love my little family!